Forty-Four

Today is the big 44.

It's my birthday.

And I'm feeling weird.

Not about being a year older.

That reality I deal with daily with my bum knee and needing reading glasses and those stubborn grey hairs.

But weird about itching for a change.

Now. Not later. Not when the kids finish school.

But now.

Cause how can I be guaranteed to have a later?

Is life meant to be lived later?

Or jump heart first into the now?

I feel like it should be now, but the hubs does not agree.

Change is scary for him. And I get that.

But how do I explain this to my heart.

My fingers are already searching for houses to rent.

In the San Diego area.......

photo from Anthony's along the Embarcadero in San Diego.
taken Oct. 2013.

Am I the only one that looks at seagulls and hears "Mine, mine, mine"?

One Year

 

Last year I asked myself "Where do you want to be in 5 to 10 years?" I had applied for a management level position at work, but I wasn't sure if I really wanted it. And I struggled for many weeks while waiting to hear who got the job (about 12 weeks). If I was offered the job, should I take it? Well, the day I asked myself the question of where I wanted to be in the future, I immediately heard the whisper of an answer.

I heard "I want to be Cindy". Cindy works on call in my department. Wed, Thurs, and Fri. And takes chunks of time off to be with family and enjoy her life. That was the exact opposite of the supervisor job. Deep in my heart I wanted to work less, not more. I wanted to focus on my family and what makes me happy.

It turns out that I did not get the job. And I couldn't be any happier. The right decision was made, by my management team and by me. And I have never regretted that decision. I am glad that I tried, and I am glad that I was forced to look closely at myself and make a choice.

One year ago today I started this little blog.

And I have never looked back (well, I have moaned/cried that no one loves me or thought "is anyone out there???). But then I remember that I'm doing this for me. And it would be icing on top if others enjoy my posts!

But truth is, I love this little space of mine. So, so, much more than I could have imagined.

I love sharing all my little stories.

I love sharing so many photos.

I love how my camera has become an everyday part of my life.

I love how I look at the world now. How I'm constantly looking for ideas for future blog posts.

I love the creative outlet.

I super, duper love getting comments!

And I'm so proud of myself and that I took that fork in the road in 2012 and am pursuing my dreams. Even if my family laughs at me, for not being successful (yet). Because I tried something hard. I put myself out there. And I'm following my passion. Where ever that leads me.

And it takes someone brave to do this.

I AM BRAVE.

And so, so grateful that I have the opportunities that I do!

I am living my dream. Thank you for stopping by today. Thank you for helping me on my journey.

Thank you!

Today

Well peeps. We're looking at 4 month together today. A quarter of a year.

120 days.
105 posts.
2562 total page views.
956 page views in last month.
43 comments.
4 canvases sold.


Other changes:
   1.   Removed photo from blog header. Just felt like it was too big. May end up adding another photo in the future.
   2.   Closed big cartel shop tonight. Hope to open etsy shop in the morning.
   3.   Making plans to take my canvases out on the road.
   4.  Opened a new checking and savings account for all luckypennylove transactions.

It's been an amazing journey. And I'm so excited to see where I will be next month. Glad to have you with me.

Now go do something today to make your heart happy!

And for those of you working on the Photo A Day-August challenge, today's prompt is: ONE

Bee Happy

Just a little something to start off your Saturday morning with a smile.



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Let me know what you did today to bee happy.

Today

Today is the 3 month anniversary since I began this blog;

90 days.
74 posts.
1606 total page views.
647 page views in last month.
36 comments (half are my responses).
1 possible canvas sale (working on a request for a custom order).
18 canvases available for purchase on my shop.

Current thoughts? I'm lovin this blog. Who would have thought I would enjoy writing? And posting?(once I got over the fear of "is this stupid" and "will anyone out there enjoy reading this?". It turns out that I really love journaling my life and things that make my heart happy!

Hope you are enjoying too! Take a moment to leave a comment and let me know what you think. I love to see comments in my inbox. Love It!!

And if you are having trouble leaving a comment, you could always send me an old fashioned e-mail. Just saying.

luckypennylove@yahoo.com

The 9 Nanas

Happy Sunday everyone!

You HAVE to click on the link below. It is truly an amazing story!!! A triple exclamation point story!

The 9 Nanas

And all my posts MUST include a photo of some sort. Hope you enjoy!

Do What You Love

Started reading The $100 Startup, by Chris Guillebeau, today. I was hooked after the first few sentences.

"Imagine a life where all your time is spent on the things you want to do." ok

"Imagine giving your greatest attention to a project you create yourself, instead of working as a cog in a machine that exists to make other people rich."  Sounds great

"Imagine handing a letter to your boss that reads, "Dear Boss, I'm writing to let you know that your services are no longer required. Thanks for everything, but I'll be doing things my own way now." Hell yes!

So I finished the first 20 pages. Will let you know what I think when I'm finished. But at this point, the book sounds like the answer to how I'm feeling right now about my life!

Today

Today is 1 month since I began this blog.
30 days.
21 posts.
511 total page views.
4 comments.
1 giveaway.


 And it has already been an adventure of learning. Of growing. Of risking. Of happiness.

I am so thankful to be on this journey.  And I am so happy that you are traveling with me!

See you tomorrow for the next post.

make your heart happy

 Happy Tuesday.

Had some free time today to break open some new canvas and start playing.
This is what I ended up with.

 This little 6x6 canvas makes my heart happy. The colors, the polka dots, the drippy paints, and the message to "live your dreams everyday".

Hmmmm.  Maybe I have time to make one more?

What did you do today to make your heart happy?